Saturday, February 03, 2007

Screwed Up Case

To begin, i guess i will not be getting married nor having any children. Why you ask? I do not want to bring another screwed up kid into this world. Why no to marriage? im too screwed up get married. Why all this you ask? EXPECTATIONS.

The world revolves around that word. People expect highly of you and when you can't deliver the standard they have set for you, you are nothing else but not-good-enough. Hence, they start getting angry or smthng.

"Wesley you're weird". Accept me for who i am? not. and this said seriously by the people you love, heartpain. I'm only 18! I'm still growing. if i can't have my own falls how will i ever know how to pick myself up? "Why can't you be as normal as your friends". Why can't it be: why can't your friends be as normal as you? That's the ironic side of expectations. I rather take a knife and stab my frustrations to death. Am i that weird?

Well... i am tired of all the EXPECTATIONS. I'll one day just burst! Already Wesley being less talkative is weird enough. I need a break, a vacation. I'm being stressed out during my holidays. The only time when i am calm n good is not when i'm in church, but it is when i'm alone in the park, thinking of life. There you have it. Madness... is'nt it??? I'm tired of all this, im tired of living and im certainly tired of the 12-letter 'E' word.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/03/2007 01:06:00 am