Friday, October 26, 2007

last day of block 1 of sem 2

Ended up going to school in FBTs cos i was so lazy to dress-up and was thinking, give it a shot. It drove alot of attention. haha... but it was really comfortable. might use it more often. then again spare the trouble. dun wan ul to get sore eyes. haha... carmen and fiona's reactions were damn funny. They were going on on how they can see my balls cos FBT shorts are made in a way tt can see the insides. So they could see the shape of it. ahha! Then they asked me whether i felt insecure abt it n i said no. hahah... after all, i have used speedos b4. hee hee... n its not like you can see whats inside. haha.. Skipped Film Language to play badminton and basketball. I can't hit the ball in the hoop for nuts. Despite even aiming so accurately. haha! or so i thot.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/26/2007 01:15:00 am

Failures

Every MISTAKE is a learning stone;
Every BLUNDER opens a new door;
And Every FAULT is a great lesson.

So many things have gone on for just this week and i have learnt so much.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/26/2007 01:12:00 am

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

halloween 2008

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/23/2007 10:03:00 pm

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Who Am I?

The few questions which stand in my life at this moment are,
  1. who am i?
  2. am i happy with who i am?
  3. do i live to my expectations or the expectations of others?

I find it difficult to answer myself these questions nowadays. I barely know who i am, and who i want to be. I am definitely, at this point, not happy with who i am. I can't see any goodness in me. Usually people will associate it with others, but for me, its me. I am so self-centred and carrer driven that i fail to respond well to stress. I am sleepy half the time and always feeling stressed out. sometimes, i just feel i need someone around, or someone to hug to make me feel positive again.

Well... this year has been a big year of change. everyone has definitely changed alot. my bestfriend has turned to my arch enemy, my ex-girlfriend has gotten her boyfriend, and my friends have been neglecting our church group. I turned the most depressed or negative this year. Known as emo wesley, who couldn't see positive in anything, yet sit and wallow at how black the world has been painted. Then moved on to being carrer-minded wesley. The selfish, self-centred one who is out there to get power and popularity. And now... i don't know who i really am.

I fight with my parents more often now. I am such a rebel, and i don't like it. There is a rebel in every family, i guess i was chosen to be it. I'm a rebel in society. School, church and friends. I never want to be the same. I always want to stand out. Then again, self-centredness.

I celebrated my 1 year of singlehood last Sunday. Though i think back, the history can never repeat. I need a girlfriend to push me and get me back on my two feet, but im so caught in this world of stress that being in a relationship in no where near the top five of what i have to do in life list. I can just sit down and pull all my hair out. That is how stressed i am. I can't take it anymore, i just can't. I wanna quit school and quit this world. But then again, people will miss me as much as i will miss them, so btr not. haha!

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/17/2007 01:17:00 am

revenge against justice

And you question yourself, why try?
Remember in one of my older post i wrote about there is no point trying.
It has been proven.


Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/17/2007 12:54:00 am

Monday, October 15, 2007

A GhosT?

On Friday, after our prayer session at church, we met a ghost, or so we thot.

After prayers, Damian, Fran and I decided to go to the RG cupboard to put the radio back. While walking through the dark corridors of the third floor, Damian asked me,"Can you see that?" I couldn't see anything, so i replied "no la.. nothing wad." Fran started freaking out and started pulling my guitar bag which i was carrying.

While walking closer, i saw this black thing on the floor. It was difficult to see as it was super dark and the only light came from the moon and lamppost downstairs. There were like things hanging around that black thing. In addition, that black thing was surrounded by something white. I shouted, "Fuck! I can see it. It's a ghost!" I froze for a while then started pacing backwards faster and faster. Fran ran far away to the staircase where there was light

Wesley: Don't go alone
Fran: I don't care

She ran downstairs frantically.

Wesley: Damian, you got courage to check it out?
Damian: Ya ok

While walking back to the RG cupboard where the black figure was laying, i asked damian.

Wesley: You scared of ghost?
Damian: Ya!
Wesley: Me too.

Then we walked closer. The wind which was blowing the cloth around made it look as if it were dementors of something. When we reached close enough, i saw this body on the floor lying down in a dead man's pose.

Damian: Excuse me...
Ghost: YES???

I was so near him when he responded. Then we realised that it is the homeless man who stays in church. While damian was putting the radio back into the cupboard, i kept laughing discreetly. When he was done, we said bye and thank you to the uncle for moving. While walking back, we kept laughing discreetly till we reach the staircase where we burst out laughing!

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/15/2007 03:50:00 pm

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Camwhored?!










Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/09/2007 12:54:00 am

Monday, October 08, 2007

Nic's Graduation In Singapore

















Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 10/08/2007 11:55:00 pm